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Is this Fiction ?

Is this Fiction ?

Ara_Kneinth | Fantasy

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Eiszel Xin Sarmiento came from a poor family, she had an 'okay life despite being poor, but then her darkest days have come and it really traumatized her. She started getting really dominated by her overthinking that she committed suicide. A few minutes to death when she realized that she still wanted to live despite everything, she wanted to correct things. Then, A magical thing happened to her, she have been isekai'd inside a book she reads and her mission is to play the strong lead role who is arranged marriage to a Billionaire!. As time passes, She is starting to fall in love with a Fictional character, Will she still choose to be back to reality?

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Chapter 1: Welcome to my Life, or should I say, After life ?

My mind is overflowing with joy as I am reading a really good book, I just started reading it, It was about a very strong female character just the same age as me. I get the salvation of reading such books with powerful protagonists because first, If my life is a book, I will most probably be the -no one knew- average human character, and second, I have such a week ass. Its my salvation to read perfect stories and perfect people with happy endings.

It was 2 weeks when the school have started, it didn't went well just as I was expecting it to be.

"Sarmiento, Eiszel Xin" I was a bit startled when my teacher called me for attendance.

I was convincing myself that it will be okay as I have rehearsed in my mind in the last few minutes how to say 'present' without stuttering.-

"Present" I responded and went straight to overthink what will be worse if I messed up saying that in a number of different ways.

After that, I continued reading my book. I just get lost in books so easily.

My name is Eiszel Xin Sarmiento, most people call me Xin. I am 17 years old. Full time Overthinker. Life will never been as wasted as mine.

I am at our school library, working on a piece that needs to be passed. After a couple of minutes, some of my classmates started coming to our table as they praise the excellent work of my 2 other classmates, while I was just like sitting there in the middle of an intimidating crowd, not even sure if I should continue what I'm doing or should sit in another table as I'm starting to hear people whisper, 'Is she the one from a family of criminals?' 'I'm scared of her, it was said that she killed her mom' 'Why are you in the same table as her'. I still choose to stay in my seat anyway even after I hear them talk about me.

I continued what I'm doing while my tears are trying to betray me because they are starting to escape my eyes. I managed to wipe them before anyone else could see. Then I tried to smile again when the others started noticing that I am there, they just looked at me in disgust, my smile faded. I know that they have already heard the news that happened to me this summer.

As I become busy with my work, someone poured her coffee on my work which is due the next hour.

I stood up to prevent the coffee from dripping staining my uniform, as if it haven't already.

"What did you do Claire?!" I said in anger, which I regret because now, more people are looking at us.

" What Xin, Are you gonna cry? " said claire while rubbing her hands to her eyes as if acting to cry to mock me.

"Why are you even trying to have a normal life here and not join your father in jail? You killed your mom didn't you? How could you Xin, If I was in your shoes, I will just kill myself"

I just weakly smiled at her. I don't have the courage to speak and fight, it's as if my lips are glued together.

I don't want to make things more complicated If I will try to fight back, and maybe I really deserve this, after all I am a mistake in this world. I did shut my friends away from me that is why I am now alone, I don't want them to get stuck with my mess. I don't want to be selfish so I told them to just leave me. I just wanted to live a normal life all this time, why am I born in this situation, Why didn't I have a life just like my normal classmates, I keep on telling myself that its okay when really, its not. I only want to live, but if living is this bad, I don't want it.

I tried calming myself and noticed that the coffee have stained my uniform badly, I would have to wash this thoroughly as I got home.

Another problem is I cant afford to buy a new illustration board for this schoolwork, my grandmother will surely kill me if I ask for a penny. I probably won't pass it even though that is a really important requirement. I don't even have a anything to pay my fare to take a bus going home.

I miss my mommy. She used to comb my hair and will sure get my stained uniform white as snow again. She will take me to school even if I told her its okay, She will cook me lunch so I wouldn't get hungry at school, She will make sure I have enough money to ride a bus home.. and now everyone thinks I killed her, maybe I did?, I should be the one dead, not her.

Some people keep telling me that life goes on.. but to me, that is the saddest part.

I got home and saw my grandmother doing the laundry. I went to her so I can ask for money for my schoolwork.

"Grandmo---" I got interrupted by her as she shouted at me.

"What now Xin??! Don't you dare call me grandmother!, You killed my child! you stupid a-- b-tch, and wow, you got your uniform stained, bet you got in trouble again didn't you? I should have just let you sleep in the streets! " My tears started falling. The wound of my mother passing away is still fresh to all of us so I can't blame her.

"But I didnt kill her grandma!, Yes, You've lost a child but I have also lost a mom!" It just snapped the hell out of me.

"What ever you say xin, You killed her, if only you're not a minor, I would have sued you and slocked you up in jail just like your worthless father!"

I usually just go with it as I am used to it, but today is just a lot to process. And for the record... It was an accident. I know should be the one whose dead not her.

I can't help it. I ran outside as I cry it all out while mumbling "mommy....mo--mmyy... why do you have to leave me in this world" mommyyy... I'm sorry if you have suffered death for me, sorry but I can't take the pain anymore...

In the middle of me running, I didn't notice a fast car rushing towards me, wow, I'm in the middle of the road. I didn't even bother to save myself, I just closed my eyes and waited for it to hit me. Mom.... I will finally have peace after this. Will you be happy for me?

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I heard loud ambulance sirens.

Its getting harder to breathe, wow, is it really gonna end here.

A few minutes.... That's all the time I have. Few minutes until all the pain is over, Few minutes until I finally die...

"Eiszel... live for me" a familiar voice said...

...it's my mom.

and then suddenly, I wanted to live.

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