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Chapter 1: 1

The howl's of my pack mate's and family ring in both my ears.

I wish I could join them but the sight of them all dancing under the full moon with their mates makes my blood boil. It makes me feel extremely violent. I hate feeling that way towards my pack, but it can't be helped.

Most of my pack finds their mate at the ripe age of Sixteen. I'm almost twenty-two years old, and each second passing by without my other half feel's like a knife carving away at my bone's.

Moreover, I can't take over my rightful position as head of the pack, tell I have my mate. Being born alpha give's me a natural advantage in life...or so I thought....

So instead of joining the pack I find myself moping under my pelts in the cave I share with my family. I'm unmated, so there's no need to take over my own cave.

The loneliness would really kill me then. Wolf's are part of a pack for a reason, we need each other to thrive.

The clicking of sharp nails approaches my lump of a body and the strong smell of oak and maple tells me my younger brother Cass is hovering at the cave entrance.

Probably debating if he should provoke my already sore emotions any further.

A stiff pause could be felt in the air before I could feel his hot wolf breath breathing over my cocooned body.

"GO away Cass, I'm not in the mood" I growl out.

I can barely hear the cracking of his bones shifting back into his human. What I do hear though is his angry growl as he rips my pelts one by one off my body.

Gasping at the shock of cold suddenly attacking my body, I'm really tempted to pull them back immediately.

"Come on, Iven, you're not going to find your mate lying around in mom and dad's cave."

Anger fills my veins and I jump up, blindly shoving him down onto the pelts he just ripped off me.

My body is moving before my mind can catch up to my actions, and before I know it, my skin is enveloped in fur.

I can feel my teeth sharpen and pushing down as my spine snaps into itself.

What I can't feel is my brothers tense body under my heavy paw. Or the thick scent of fear that clouds the cave as my growling mussel inches closer to his face.

I can see in his hazel eyes the reflection of my icy blue eyes standing out so much against my black fur it seemed like I blended into the darkness.

A strong sound of a whimper echoes off the cave walls and Cass slowly turns is head in submission. I can almost taste the sweat coming off his body. Making his light, choppy blonde hair fall damply over his eyes.

I let his sounds of submissiveness sink into my bones. Feeling the strong need to assert my domaince as an alpha slowly taper off.

I leap ahead of his body and gracefully land in front of the cave's entrance. I really don't want to join them, but I was feeling guilty for forcing him into submission. Not only that, but I wasn't being rational about this whole problem. Furthermore, I just don't want to face the many happy faces gathered in celebration.

It felt like I was slowly withering away in the wind and if I didn't find my mate soon I might just drift off completely. I decided to leave him there scared, shaken and alone in the cave as I join the others.

I'm sure he will appreciate the space and time to gather himself before coming back out. He may be younger, but he's also an Alpha, and I know first-hand being forced down into submission sucks ass. It's not only humiliating but shame, always seems to cling to your scent after.

Letting everyone with a keen sense of smell know you stepped above your rank.

Snickering to myself I start to think of how good a mate I will be to my future love, but my thoughts are stopped when suddenly feeling my brothers' presence following.

Strange, I thought he would like time for himself....

Then suddenly it dawns on me that he may've just played me for a fool to get me out of the cave.

One Week Later

Only a week ago the night of our mating celebration happened. I got to see the lucky members of my pack show off their newly found mates.

I'm not going to lie, it felt like a special punishment made just for me.

Inhaling a deep breath of the crisp morning air surrounding my wolf body. I decide to go for a early morning run before everyone wakes up. I can't deal with the pity stares they cast my way.

It turn's me into some stereotypical hormone raging male Alpha. Which I'm obviously not male, so all my outburst's get taken as me throwing a hissy fit....and to be honest I can be very vindictive as well.

I run the whole perimeter of my packs rocky territory. Once upon a time we lived in flat woods. Over time though pack member's had family's, and found their mate's. So we moved onto a huge mountain. It was only natural for us to relocate back to were are ancestor's once lived.

Covered in thick woods and harsh winters we thrive up here..

After covering the trail twice I stopped at a one of the many natural crystal lakes, we have littering about are mountain.

I stare into the clear water and see my wolf reflection. I'm as big as any Alpha male I've ever met. The strong outline of my muscles are visible. Showing off the hours of working my body to its maximum every day. My black fur covers my body like I'm wearing a dark cloak. In the brightness of the day I cast dark shadows where ever I walk.

Lastly my sharp blue eyes all most as clear as the water it self. Who couldn't resist this? Who would reject such superior genetics? When I find my Alpha mate he will be proud of me instantly.

I shift into my human form and examine myself in the reflection just as I've done before.

My brother has light blonde hair he got from mother but I have wild red curls from our Father. My eyes are still blue s just not as bright when I shift.

My stomach is toned to the max and I would say I have a pretty nice ass....maybe little but still a little cushion for the pushing. Same gos with me chest, I maybe be a size B but it's a nice fit for my body.

The sun starts to blind me a bit as I exam myself. Telling me the other's will be awake soon if they are not all ready.

I let myself fall forward into the sharp cold water. Shocking all my sense awake rapidly. Letting my body's natural weight sink my down as far as it wants, I free float.

Intruding thoughts circle around my mind. Running me over in it's endless cycle of doubt.

What if my mate gave up on us? What if he found another and decided I wasn't worth the wait? I shouldn't let myself think these things because I am a Alpha female.

I'm rare, I am Iven, I am strong.

I repeat this to myself as I let my body float down the icy river. My natrual wolfs warmth fighting a battle in vain to keep me warm.

When I find my mate I won't have to be so strong. He will ease the burden and I can finally take my rightful place as this packs Alpha.

I let the water take me, as I drown in my own thoughts.